Sunday, December 31, 2006

Goodbye Yesterdays

I was alone watching firework displays on the balcony...I usually don't go for new year countdowns, because to me a new year means a new year, nothing much and nothing special for me to celebrate...I'm looking at those fireworks in the skies...wow...they are really huge and colourful...but I was thinking what do they mean? Do they mean ' well Koh Weng Yan, still remember what makes you regreted for what you've done last year? So don't ever do that again in the rest of the years you have! ' or ' Hello! After watching us, It's another year for you to work out, Miss Koh? ' or ' Nah..never mind...past is past, everything is gonna be fine next year ' or may be...may be they mean something else which I do not know....All I know is I still have a long way to go.

I didn't make any wishes just now. I was just looking at the skies blindly. I still can hear people screaming for joy in Bintang Walk. I remember I've made some wishes in 2004 at the fireworks. For some reasons which I do not want to mention I dare not to make wishes anymore. All I can tell, it is not only about disappointments but more than that.

This year I promise myself that what I want, I will gain them myself. I have dreams, but I do not have wish. I will keep my dreams for myself, and god, I know you do things for reasons. I'm sorry that I do not understand but I'm not blaming you, but please don't take away my love ones again.

and goodbye yesterdays........

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Christmas Eve 2006

Date : 24 December 2006
Venue : KLCC
Time : 8.30pm-1.00am
Celebrate with : -
1.) Chong Jen Wen [my niece]
2.) Coco Tan May Ee [my ex-classmate in A'levels]
3.) Arthur [Coco's friend]
4.) Tina [My Indonessian maid. I know it's funny. But I'm not joking, it's a fact]

Styles : -
Me - sexy wear (japanese style)
Jen Wen - sweet GUESS' mini skirt
Coco and Arthur - Punk Lolita (damn cool!)
Tina - (never mind...)

Activities :
1.) having coffees in Starbucks
2.) photography session
3.) having another coffee session in Dome (just right beside Starbucks)
4.) waiting for fireworks display at the swimming pool area
(but too bad...there were no fireworks...I do not understand why everyone was happily standing there looking at the skies and waited for 20 minutes including US)

Money spent :
RM 29.97 on coffees
RM 5.00 on parking
Approximately RM 10.00 on petrol
Total = RM44.97

Lessons learnt :
1.) Malaysians are really bad drivers
-Met a babi driver (I'm sorry, malay friends. But I have to say that), who was nothing but a babi driver who can't even realise that even an idiot will know how to let other drivers to make an U-turn when the traffic is horribly jam especially in festive season like this in a town called KL).
-On the other hand, there was an idiot who insisted to drive his car out from a car park to the main road which was beautifully congested and stucked himself right in the middle of the junction blocking other drivers while he himself cannot move to any directions (and he was on the phone!). In other words, he did not want anyone reached home before he does, that idiot also known as a stupid selfish idiot homo sapien chinese man driver.

2.) Malaysians are idiots
-There are some nonsense poeple were spraying 'fake snows' which are probably made of bubbles or papers or plastics or whatever at bystanders on the street and cars which were stucking in the jam. Such snows will caused nothing but pollutions, dirty the town and causes eye irritations and the best thing was that I JUST WASHED MY CAR IN THE EVENING!!!! And there was a guy riding a motorbike sprayed snows onto my car on purpose and then ran away. I understood it perfectly well that a car can never chase a motorbike, but I just feel like knocking him down and spray that snows into his mouth!
And guess what was the wonderful part of all? The government has do nothing to ban such spraying snows. Probably because of Malaysia doesn't have winter.

3.) Vandalism is a part of the cultures in Malaysia
-I can see poeple vandalising when I was caught in the jam in front of Times Square. They will usually aimed at those barriers in which purpose is to prevent poeple from crossing the road without using the pedestrian bridge; and the nice newly painted walls in the street so that they can do grafitti to it as if hip hop culture was not currupted enough by some fools. And I wonder why do poeple deadly like to write their bloody lovers'name everywhere in public espacially in the public toilet?


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*P/S: No matter how horrible this country is,
I STILL LOVE MALAYSIA, I will not leave this country if I were not to do
my law twinning.
And do you know what the really sad part is? I wasn't lying.


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Of all, me and my friends were having fun all night long in KLCC.
These are the photographs that we've captured in the KLCC's swimming pool area
And my dear friends, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

--> My niece and Punk Lolita Coco






--> My favorite pose - The Pussycat Dolls' pose!!!






--> Aunt & Niece - we are the best rapers of My Humps; Beep; Don't Cha; Buttons; Fergalicious and many more....











freedom, stylish, elegance......
The spirit of street culture

Thursday, December 7, 2006

You don't see me

This is the place where I sit,
This is the part where I love you too much.
This is as hard as a kiss,
I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough.

I dream of the world where you will understand,
I dream of the melodies that you sang last night.
I dream of fire when you holding my hands,
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights.

I'm speechless and fated,
It's too complicated.
Is this what we called 'nothing but good friends'?


This is a not-so-popular song by Nichole Schzinger, the main singer in The Pussycat Dolls. Everytime when I listen to this song, it makes me flash back some scene in these past two years. May be not only some, but plenty of...

I look out to the window...thinking what my friends are probably be doing now? Are they happy with their life in their hometowns? Do they miss their life in Taylor's? Or they are thinking: Yes! I don't have to study in this bloody college anymore, the lecturers are so... (okay, I'm not suppose to say or comment anything about my lecturers in Taylor's because...you know...)
I wonder how Jiang Mun is doing in ss15 now? Is Anne still helping her mother out in the Law Firm in Muar? Shing Yi and Henry must be watching television at home...Had Benjemin eaten APPLE? What about Eva? Is Sze Jia enjoying his life in Kuching? Can Sohan cope up with his break dance in Penang? How things going with Coco and Wayne lately?............

I'm doing nothing at home everyday. Fergie is singing 'fergalicious' in Channel [V], my niece is shaking her butt like Fergie in front of the TV. But I don't find that's even a little bit funny, because she will do that everytime when I watch Channel [V] or MTV, or may be because of my heart is feeling empty, or may be because of I'm just lonely?......or.....may be......yes, I'm missing somebody.....somebody special...somebody who is extremely selfish...


Cause you don't see me,
And you don't need me,
And you don't love me.
The way I wish you would......
The way I know you could......

currently listening to: You Don't See me by Nicole Schzinger
currently feeling: indescribable



Wednesday, December 6, 2006

Those days are passed

"What are you doing over there? I need to talk to you..."
"I'm working now, anything?"
"When can I see you? I don't feel like studying lately, I'm stressed, can I..."
"Oh...customers are calling, I'll get you later...bye..."
"Okay......"

"Hello..."
"Having classes?"
"Yea...I'm having Law now..."
"You can answer calls when the class is on?"
"Supposingly no..."
"Then I'll drop you a line in the evening, okay?"
"No, I'm going for movies with my friends in the evening and tonight I have something on...practice dance with my......"
"Okay, since you are that busy...I'll call you next time..."
"Okay."


These always happened to us, we could hardly see each other and sometimes we can't even have a proper conversation. It's raining out there, and I'm starting to miss him now. I always thinking how wonderful it will be if we can go back to the past and never grow up. Things also seemed not that complicated when we were kids, we bother shits about the adults and follow our hearts to do whatever we like to do. I could still remember all those crazy stuffs we did in the past 15 years. So now only you know the 'him' isn't the 'him' who you are thinking about huh? Haha...He is my beloved bother ! It is indeed true that we seldom see each other and I'm going to chop off his head very soon because he always didn't pick up my phone calls in the appropriate time and likes to call me in the inappropriate time!!!
However, past is past. Peter Pan does not exist, there is no 'Neverland' in reality. Although we are carrying on with our lives in different places and we have different ambitions but at least we living under the same skies!

This is the second week of my long, boring holidays. Me and those giler gals in PL5 have finally decided to visit Ipoh in this cuming tuesday, 12.12.2006. The other day, Jeremy told me not to visit his hometown in Taiping, wherever I go. Perasan punya feller...Oh yea...I've finally make up my mind to continue to master my hip hop and break dance with the hip hop community in Urban Groove in 2007!

And after some time, I've finally decided my path. Who knows where I go from here? So many voices only one thing's clear, there is nothing to lose, and nothing to fear...I want to do LAW! This is where I will go from here! Well, that's it for now.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

My Path

When the earth is white, the land is cold, the bird moves on so they survive, the bear goes sleep to keep themselves alive. They know what they must do for now and trust in their plan; if I follow mine, I might find who I am...but where do I go from here? The path ahead is just too many bends, too far, and I can't see the end...

As I grow up, I met more and more people when I was walking along on my path. They came from different backgrounds and places. Some are strangers who are just crossing by; some used to walk along with me but at last, they left; and some are now still walking together with me...But I should know, they will leave one day, just like the others, because no-one will ever walk with me until the end, may be once...

I've learn to choose; I've learn to decide; and I've even learn to say good-bye though sometimes I don't really want to...But who knows where I go from here? So many voices ringing in my ear...Which is the voice that I was meant to hear? How do I know where do I go from here? Sometimes, I'm just wondering will there be an angel to create a miracle?




*life is amazing*