Monday, September 20, 2010


After everything that we have been through these years,
I often questioned myself whether he is forgiven.

My heart kept telling me to forgive him,
however, my mind kept saying no!

There are so many voices ringing in my ears,
I tried to listen to the voice within but yet,
I couldn't hear a single.

May be I just can't forget about it...
Because it hurts me so deeply.

And yes, we are still together...

Saturday, October 24, 2009


I'm just tired of love.
Perhaps, nothing is forever.

I'm just tired of everything.
Perhaps, it's time to do nothing.

But I just don't understand why?
I thought I'm the girl who already had everything?

And now, it turned out to be nothing,
but a lie, a big big lie.

I'm tired, things just don't work out!
Perhaps, it's time to let go.

Perhaps, perhaps...

Saturday, November 22, 2008


It's annoying to see a bunch of assignments that are yet to be done,
and I'm thinking that I must have lost my mind to even have an intent to post something here while reading the stupid judgements of Adams v Cape Industries...

Hello, you think I so free ar? Personal statement also haven't write ar! You think I want to write a long essay here just to tell you that I'm doing fine, I'm so stress over my assignments and presentations, I miss those who are abroad, I so long didn't dance, my sis is still as irritating as ever, my chow chows are getting smarter but naughtier, stev and I are getting along well, dadadadadada.....a bunch of craps??? Dream on la you!!!

I don't even have a second to entertain anyone of you so please don't expect that I will write anything here for the sake of updating my post...

Bye Bye la! :p

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Have you ever?

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever?

Thursday, August 14, 2008


After exactly one year of working life, my contract with The American Malaysian Chamber of Commerce will be finished officially in the end of this month. This is also exactly one year since I'd quitted HELP.

I can still remember what Miss Kay Mi told me in her office in last September,
and the atmosphere in my car when I was telling Anne that I was quitting HELP.

I really treasure what Miss Kay Mi had told me and that will definitely change much of my perspectives towards studying and achieving a good result in future!

I remember Kho told me when we were in Taylor's: "What we've studied is for our future use, not only for achieving good result."

I admit that I was very depressed over my Year 1 result as I was really working hard for it to strive for the best result! But at the end my result was turned out to be something totally out of not only my, but everyone's expectation!!!

"Because your strategy is wrong!"

"Sometimes it is not only about study hard! Your creativity counts!"

-said Kay Mi-

Anyway, those are the past. What I know right now is that I am going back to HELP to continue onto my Year 2 Law Degree. And I've really learnt a lot in these past 12 months!

So all the best in Year 2!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, August 4, 2008

Tagged. by Tning

6 People to tag
Anne Ng
Jiang Mun Chong
Shing Yi Lee
Bboy Eddie
Benjemin Miao

6 things I'm passionate about
Dancing (lol!)
Juicy Couture
Nice cool fancy handbags
Hot guys

6 things I say too often
Diu lei! (fuck you in Cantonese, but it is a joking version) - often say to Anne Ng
Saya tak tau! - often say to my maid
Rocky Chai (with a manja tune) - I think I say that more than 10 times a day
You know why? Because you are stupid! - often say to my niece
Diu lor - aften say to self when I'm pissed
Yah Meh? - often say to Anne and my maid

6 books I've read recently
Sorry, I only read newspapers for the past 6 months.

6 songs I can listen to again and again (can I change '6' to '60'???)
My Humps - The Black Eyed Peas
Sweetest Girl - Akon
Better In Time - Leona Lewis
Take A Bow - Rihanna
Bad Habits - Destiny's Child
Scandalous - Misteeq

6 things I learnt in the past year
Love is patience and forgiving.
What you see in your eyes might not be real, what you hear from others are mostly not reliable.
Only pamper myself when It is needed to do so, cannot simply spend money (Only learnt after I came out to work).
When someone is picking faults on you on purpose, there is no way that you can escape especially when you are lack of 'bargaining power' e.g. you and your boss.
Westerners are not necessarily kind, generous and understanding.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Sex, lies, murder and Malaysian politics

Malaysian politics are sizzling with sex intrigues, murder accusations, scandalous lies and intra-party squabbles.

A few months ago a government minister resigned after admitting he was the person caught in a videotape having sex with a young woman in a hotel. The video was uploaded on the Internet.
Early this month opposition leader Anwar Ibrahim was accused of sodomy by his 23-year-old aide. Sodomy is a crime in Malaysia, punishable by 20 years of imprisonment. The victim alleged he was sexually assaulted by Anwar up to eight times in various luxury hotels in Paris and Hong Kong. This is the second time the former deputy premier was accused of sodomy. The first case was filed ten years ago and led to Anwar’s imprisonment – although he was later cleared of those charges.

But Anwar has a bombshell of his own. He organized a press conference at which a private investigator revealed that Deputy Prime Minister Najib Razak had sex with a 28-year-old Mongolian model who was brutally murdered in 2006. The model was shot twice in the head and her body was blown up with plastic explosives. Najib denied having an affair with the woman.
Najib’s close associate was accused of abetting the murder. A prominent Malaysian blogger also wrote that Najib’s wife was present when the Mongolian model was murdered. The blogger was subsequently charged with sedition and criminal defamation.

Who is telling the truth? It is definite that at least one of these persons is lying. It is also apparent that all of these accusations and counter accusations are politically motivated. Najib insists Anwar used a desperate tactic to divert the people’s attention from his sodomy case. On his part, Anwar believes the sodomy charge was part of a government maneuver to defeat the plan of the opposition to seize power this year.
Before the sex scandals, Malaysia was already facing a political crisis. Last March the opposition managed to secure one-third of the parliamentary seats. Five states were put under their control. Some member parties of the ruling coalition threatened to withdraw support for the prime minister.

Adding to the problem of the government is the resignation of former Malaysian leader Mahathir Mohamad from the political party to which he belonged. He urged other politicians to leave the ruling party as well. It is no secret that Mahathir is not happy with the performance of his handpicked successor, Prime Minister Abdullah Badawi.

Mahathir wrote in his blog that he has every right to be concerned over the “flip-flopping mismanagement” of the country and that of the party he helped to revive in 1987. “The party does not belong to Dato Seri Abdullah alone. Nor is it meant to support him as leader even when he mishandled the elections and the country,” he added.

Before the sex scandals, Malaysians were talking about the country’s faltering economy. Fuel subsidies were removed, which led to higher oil prices. Big protests were held in different parts of the country. Many people, including the frustrated sections of the middle class, began to question the economic policies of the government which they blamed for the rising cost of living in Malaysia.

Today Malaysians are more interested in the sodomy case and other sex scandals involving influential persons. The economic crisis is still a major issue, but sex and murder will always tickle the people’s imagination.

The opposition should not be distracted by the sex scandals. Analysts believe the opposition can form a new government with the help of some administration defectors. This could be done in the next few months, but the pressure against the ruling government must be sustained.
One way to weaken the already weak government would be to mobilize the people against high oil prices, inflation, the deteriorating economy and corruption. Young Malaysians are furious over the shameful acts of their leaders. The people should be made to remember why they voted for many members of the opposition in the last elections. In short, the issue should be refocused on the unpopular prime minister.

Abdullah Badawi had earlier promised to step down at the end of the year. Now he is saying he will leave office in 2010. It seems the ruling party has succeeded in preventing a possible opposition takeover this year.

It is good that Anwar is asking his supporters to “protest by all means," and to use stadiums and other public spaces as venues of protest actions. But the issue should be more than just the sex lives of politicians. It should still be about the economy and more importantly, Prime Minister Abdullah Badawi.

By Mong PalatinoPeripheries
Published: July 21, 2008
Manila, Philipines